As I sit in a darkened room on a Saturday night, I was acutely aware all of the sounds of people in the streets. With my thumb pressed against my third and fourth finger, I sat in silence wrapped up in my own thoughts. There I was contemplating life, but this time there are no worries or regrets, gratitude flowed through my heart.
In fact, I have just returned from a trip to the Outback. Yoga has been the core reason that I even set foot on this trip in the first place. I have befriended a few kind old ladies, so to speak, I couldn't be more grateful for their companionship, kindness, selflessness and trust. These people that I'm about to name has been exceptionally kind to me, they have shared their wisdom and no doubt I found it enlightening. These graceful ladies are: Sam, Kate, Clare, and Rachel. I won't go into the full details, each of them has their own personality, but they were all very nuturing to me, I think they have helped me gain a sense of who I want to be. Compassionate, accepting, and most importantly nurturing love.
I also want to thank my partner Nesh, for accepting me for who I am, the way I am, and who I want to become. I know that at times, I can be really difficult to understand or get along with but it seems that he has learn to take the good along with the bad, and stick through thick and thin. It's also a relief, a huge, immense relief when he understands that some of his friends are not my type. He doesn't feel the need to make me like them. He's fine as long as I'm not mean. Mean, I'm not but I can be introverted and anti-social, I know that. At the very least, I mean, the least that I can do is to be friendly and polite and perhaps, when I don't feel like talking or joining in, I can just sit back, observe and listen to them. I know that he's always watching out for me. He reads my expression all too well. He also knows that I hate the feeling of feelong lost in a crowd. The slightest hint and my facial expressions are verbal cues to him to act upon. I may be the world's most selfish and possessive girlfriend, but I am grateful, learning, giving and receiving, and growing every day. For that, I am utterly happy and grateful.
As Sam says, " No dramas". Just peace, love and acceptance. True happiness is shared. Yes, and I love my family very much. Dad, Wee Kheng, Jason and Jolin, I love you, my lovely little family.
